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 1 😭😭😭😭😭 I recently had a conversation with my friend Angela about the sadistic male gaze, and why I think it's hot. I will link it as soon as my YouTube allows me to click on my own channel page omg. We discussed the difference between sadism and masochism, and I think we came to the conclusion that sadism was when you found pleasure in inflicting pain upon an object, aka someone else, and masochism was when you enjoyed inflicting pain upon yourself. In this way, I feel like I am masochistic when I post things on Instagram and get like 5 likes, and my Instagram audience is sadistic by seeing my posts and not liking them. Jk (sort of).  (Note: This is just indicative of how obsessed I am with Instagram and my engagement thereof tho. Every time I try to meditate or take a nap my mind just automatically goes to why am I not getting any likes on Instagram and how many people are viewing my story. Still fun to connect it with sadism/masochism tho.) But in a way, I feel like ...

I've been thinking about capitalism lately. What is capitalism? As I understand it, capitalism is the market economy, which is dominated and controlled by competition between parties who have different controls on "capital", which is monetary means of production. Broadly speaking, capitalism is the way that money works in modern society, and money is, of course, a made-up thing. I think capitalism, or late-stage capitalism as we understand it is all of the components of the modern market economy--the insurances, the supermarkets, the groceries, Amazon, Netflix, Chime, Morgan Freeman (??), JP Morgan, music streaming, and iPhones. Pretty much everything that makes up our modern fabric of life can be described by...capitalism. Or maybe that's something Karl Marx would say. I need to re-read Capital (I read like the first third of it when I was in college, not to brag.) But I've sort of been thinking about capitalism lately, re: medical services. Insurance, and the in...

1 David Foster Wallace's untimely death One of my favorite writers, if not my favorite writer, David Foster Wallace, ultimately killed himself because he went off antidepressants. At least, as is always is the case in cases of suicide, the events leading up to the suicide itself is shrouded in a black cloak of mystery, but when I googled it, the AI result (I know, I know) said that basically the reason David Foster Wallace went off his medication was because there were concerns with side effects, and the reason he killed himself was because he went off his medication. At the very least, he was off his medication when he killed himself, so it leads people (at least me) to speculate that he killed himself because he was off his medication.  And this is believable, at least to me. Before I started the lithium, which I am on now, I was experiencing suicidal thoughts at an alarming rate. It was actually extremely alarming. I would have what I called "anxiety attacks" like ever...